Over depressed and on to revenge, got it people okay i can do something wich brings Operation Put Down. okay ull see latter.

so im back again today but writing helps me somehow deal. Anyway im sitting here on the computer where i started to cry, emontional breackdown. i left the room and cryied then came back, when done becasue i hate crying then i started crying again adn then they noticed because i was trying to get my family to watch one of my shoews instead of the one they werent watching becasue we had anyway, i started crying againg and they noticed. They assumed it was becasue i wasent gettign my way so they were like Ela needs to get more sleep ela needs a chill pill. gosh this is why i never tel them anything. i hate it

So for today i would have to say that the end part sucked. Deeply. The first part was kinda cool even thought im groowing more and more angry with my stupid squedual. i can never really talk to Cloud and Spazm and Paradoxism (okay name update, giving it that is kitty, shes wanted to be called that for a wile and yeah) because we are no longer in the same lunch anymore because of the messed up squeduel. And i am growing increasignly anoying with this one girl i sit with at lunch not because i want to, but because the friends i sit with sit next to her. But this week is spirit week and today was coler day and my grades coler was black. I did go all out, i looked like a total goth with lots of black eye shadow and liner and black lipstick with fishnet tights under bagy black pants and chunky black boots wich were cool. I was proboly the most into it and earnd a cople stares from people driving past my bus stop and lots of comments like, "its black day not emo day" and "lipstick" was one of my new names.
But it was relativly cool because that is the way they are and the way i am, so it dosent matter.
I got home still relativly happy. and then started my math homework, determined to figure it out and stuff, and finish it. i ended up talking 1 hour on that, so i was really iretated adnwnted to go talk to Paradoxism on Facebook becasue she had something to tell me. So i went and practiced piano for a short amount of time because that was all i was feeling for music today. i practice based on inspiration, and i went back to the main room to go on the computer, and my brother was on it, still. He had been on there for a long time, like sence we got home, he was really on my nerves tonight because he was laughing at me wile i was working on my homework. Really anoying, he always has to be in my bussness.
When i got in the room my dad was like " you need to practice more" and i had to but i was arguing and stuff, then my brother joined in and i snapped, i yelled at him "Why do you always have to get involved in my bussness." then stormed of to practice some more because i never really won that argument. After practicing more i came back, lo and behold taylor was still on the computer, so i yelled at him, still pissed at him, to get of the computer. Theni got in truble and stuff, but evaded some talkign to by going to my room. When i heard my brother at the piano i went downstairs to the computer and got a talk about how it is not good to go "flying of the wire at every little thing" and how "first impresions make a difference" and how "next year youre going to a new school and you wont get any frinds if you act like that" ugg another thing about how loosing all my friends at the begening of 7th grade was all my fault, and after it was my fault to. I kinda skimmed over that talk ignorign it because it was really anoying how they were talking down to me again, because i am a little kid who dosent understand anything. who needs adults to lead her through everithing. This is why i never tell my parent anything anymore, it ends up being my fault, no matter wat.
Then i got on to the computer and read Paradoxisms blog. She told me about how People where talking about me on the bus, and then it was a crash. Usually im able to blow stuff off like that because after all it dosent really matter, they are all stupid idiots. But tonight it hit hard, for some reason. i ended up crying for a little bit and the soundtrack of me is really sad of
Bad Day- Daniel Powter
Best of me- Daniel Powter
its like it al aded up, and it sucks. I know need to go radiate hate at sertain people tomorow. I feen depresed. Ugg, i need to cheer up. But i cant.

i copy pasted this from facebook chat
Ela
i almost got a boyfriend on Sunday
Kitty
WHOA
explain
Ela
um well i it was really freacky and random
anyway
i was at a swimmming park for girl scouts
with a couple other girl scouts in my troop who i am not exactly friends with and i had to go even thought my one friendin gs wasent there so i was compleytly bored
becaue the other too were lame

Kitty
i liked girl scouts

Ela
good for yo0u
anyway
i was just sitting down and this cute boy came and sat next ot me and he was like
whats ur name and how old are you and stuff like that and i found out where he lived and he was 13 adn his name was like treyton or something on the lines of that
and then he was like do you have a boyfriend and i was like no
and then he was like you should calll me my # is (insert # hhere)wich of course i couldent write down becaue duh, i was wering a swimsuit wat am i supposed to do pull a pen i inserted in my skin out or cut his # into my arm
anyway

Kitty
xD
what'd ya think of him
?

Ela
so i forgot it and then he like leans close and whispers "can i kiss you" in my ear

Kitty
FREAK!

Ela
and then i laughed and said no
and he was like why

Kitty
once he asks why I woulda slapped him

Ela
and i said becaue i dont know you yet
and then he was like will you try too
and i was like yeah

Kitty
xD

Ela
and then he was like come on
and then i was liek no again

Kitty
*slap*

Ela
and then we got kiked out

Kitty
LOL

Ela
of the place we were sitting becuase we where under 16 yrs
and then i was like al
call you even though i forgot his # and everithing

Kitty
xD you ditched him. He deserved it.

Ela
wel and i told him my # too sommewher lalong the way becuae he was nice and everithign
but he obviusly forgot it adn soon as i told him too

Kitty
xD

Ela
soo that was my story
of an almost boyfriend

Kitty
*coughgoodblogstorycough*

Ela
well i dont want to retype that
o right copy paste

Kitty
copy and paste! xD

Ela
thats wat i just said

Kitty
=P

So that was a wonderfull converation effectivly discribing my Sunday right (happy Kitty?)

Good Music

Some good music never gets found and played on the radio, wich is a sirius problem considering nowone ever really hears it if it iset played for them. i somehow manage to find this music by vidio searching for songs based on the good artists. I have found good music that i never heard before on the radio and i would never have found.
Howeever there is a problem considering the artists whos songs i havent heard on the radio and they have good songs, i might never hear them so i am sad, radios need to be caught up to good music sirsly listen to these:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_C55DeU568A
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZJYUgz5xUco
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D7fv5dlozk8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XempunzHQ0U

I hate omnifest

So i was like yeah its friday when i came home from school. i was looking foreward to a eveiniing of doing watever i wanted. i walked into my house after getting of the bus and the first thing i hear is where going to the science musium for an omnitheatre movie.
Did i mention that the rest of my weekend is ruined becasue of school play practice so i had to go to school today and miss school. the only thing i had to look foreward to this weekend was the friday to myself.
so instead of injoying the friday i had to join my family to watch an hour long documentary that i would soon forget.
Fun.
did i mention i will have to go to more because of this stupid omnifest. i hate it, evil omnifest is ruining my life.

The writing of yeah

well here i am again is spanish class because i am totaly bored and by the way i am not that critical i just speack the truth and have an opinion about everithing.
Dr Horribel is okay by the way, Kity, it just started out like aaa wired.
As for me i am totaly exited to go to school tomorow to practice for the school play im in on one of the only two days off i have. isint that just exiting i mean who wouldent want to go spend their saturday at school listening to their principall yell at people to speack louder, more expresion. I am also missing curling! wich i only get to do like 3 times a month and i need to get my team together for the Mapleton bonspiel. Gesh its a stupid play too.
Goshdarnit my anoying spanish buddy go away.

well now class is almost over so i will have to come back and write whenever i have inspiration. or the need to compeat with kitty over most entries